fading

the memory of you fades and my hearts fire starts simmer... sadness wells in the eyes and the enduring pain the lingers... to miss you and to know that this hurts so much. everyday life feels different with out u. it hurts that you are becoming a memory... someone i once was someone who i was lnce with the people we were when we were together. good or bad for each other it just feels so remote, isolating and lonely. its almost like i dont want want to let go of the feelings we once had even knowing how destructive they were... for both us. i miss you boobie! i miss you allot. i remember your face so clearly and the way you felt to wake up next to and kiss goodbye i  the morning. somedays are easy really easy are some days i feel i cant think else. its always so suprising... to have these feelings hit me so strong and I crumble tempted to call and fall back into that bad pattern just to feel soothed and comfort of your embrace.