what will bring me peace?

this way and that way 

upside down and inside out

foggy waters, stormy clouds

crsytal ball tell me what the future beholds!? 

ask these questions there will be no resolve... peace does not live here it comes from within. 

deep with in the calm waters of crystal mind be at peace and you will find a sense of sense that will not compromise for the sake of someone else what peace beholds

not sure...

sounds all to familiar especially if you are in my sphere of thoughts..especially recently. ha more than likely you are a derivative. a derivative of the sounds in mind that are incessantly here  to distract me from the truth of what needs to happen; would should or could. it doesnt matter anyways...im still not sure.

i want you, i dont, i love you but not sure, we can do this, no we cant, lets try again oh... we already have and look now... alone again, lost. another stupid argument! i did not get you, you did not get me this is not the way things are supposed to be. I wish could find the seamless connection with each other we both long for!! but ..... it keeps happening and hurts a little more each time. ouch! ...