After almost a week at home I am feeling normalised, acclimatised and almost revitalised. I haven't caught up with too many peeps just as yet as I am really just trying to settle and find what feels right...
Home is always a good place to start...
I'm not sure what is to happen on the career front as I am torn once again between the idea of more travel and to study...my nerdy secret passion...information, knowledge and answers.
Here is the gist...
Why Travel?
Because I am young, no attachments, no children...pure and unadulterated freedom at my finger tips to do as I wish, how wish and when I wish...the gift of life really. I have two more continents that I just want to touch before I settle. I mean 100's of countries but I know and accept that you can't do it all in once life time...but you sure as hell can try!
Why Study?
Because I am the seeker of answers, the seeker of truth. My legislated destiny...to impart the knowledge upon others??? maybe! maybe not! But by studying Chinese Medicine I feel it will be the wrapping paper to the collection of knowledge I have accumulated, learned and experienced on this surreal experience of life!
Love...
It seems that I had allot of this ingredient early on in life; I was in and out of love like the weather. I got hurt, I hurt others, I let go, I moved on and since then and I have not been able to find someone worthy. A few candidates have appeared here and there and do hit the nail on the head but for whatever reason the cosmos and I are not vibrating on the same frequency to send me someone of the a similar capacity, consciousness or life level. While it is not an active search, I feel that if the part of me that wants to travel is greater than the part that wants to study I will always attract fly by relationships that are fulfilling in the present but not forever enduring. While being present and living moment to moment is nice...Love is also about being able to share your heart and mind with someone that continues to pursue their own dreams and life. I guess my fludity when it comes to life and love is not something that can be had by all. While I want the deep connection I still want the freedom...WOW! I sound bipolar at times...but answer me this...Is this a case of the chicken and the egg? or the rock and the hard place?
Anways...off to catch up with my boys and have some fun in Pyrmont. I love you Sydney, you always re-ground me! Give me 3 months and I know you will drive me up the wall.
Home is always a good place to start...
I'm not sure what is to happen on the career front as I am torn once again between the idea of more travel and to study...my nerdy secret passion...information, knowledge and answers.
Here is the gist...
Why Travel?
Because I am young, no attachments, no children...pure and unadulterated freedom at my finger tips to do as I wish, how wish and when I wish...the gift of life really. I have two more continents that I just want to touch before I settle. I mean 100's of countries but I know and accept that you can't do it all in once life time...but you sure as hell can try!
Why Study?
Because I am the seeker of answers, the seeker of truth. My legislated destiny...to impart the knowledge upon others??? maybe! maybe not! But by studying Chinese Medicine I feel it will be the wrapping paper to the collection of knowledge I have accumulated, learned and experienced on this surreal experience of life!
Love...
It seems that I had allot of this ingredient early on in life; I was in and out of love like the weather. I got hurt, I hurt others, I let go, I moved on and since then and I have not been able to find someone worthy. A few candidates have appeared here and there and do hit the nail on the head but for whatever reason the cosmos and I are not vibrating on the same frequency to send me someone of the a similar capacity, consciousness or life level. While it is not an active search, I feel that if the part of me that wants to travel is greater than the part that wants to study I will always attract fly by relationships that are fulfilling in the present but not forever enduring. While being present and living moment to moment is nice...Love is also about being able to share your heart and mind with someone that continues to pursue their own dreams and life. I guess my fludity when it comes to life and love is not something that can be had by all. While I want the deep connection I still want the freedom...WOW! I sound bipolar at times...but answer me this...Is this a case of the chicken and the egg? or the rock and the hard place?
Anways...off to catch up with my boys and have some fun in Pyrmont. I love you Sydney, you always re-ground me! Give me 3 months and I know you will drive me up the wall.
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