sombre and sober

time goes by so slowly...when the heart feels lonely. distracted and diluted by booze all feels far from what was so real. its like i was just in it and now... well now im not. a hard snap of the rubber band quickly slaps you in the face to tell you this is not right this is not the love you live for and then here I am....

...to learn myself again... what a delight. how quickly we forget ones highest intelligence our souls desire...but this sombre lethargic energy of loss and longing forbodes my clarity. to be raw, to be real to be seen, 

i know i will be found again its the intention of the journey in the first place...but it must first be to purify my thoughts and to love thy self with compassion... 

great another year in india!!