Cramp my style

Talk about expect the unexpected. Well a woman's lunar cycle is a part of life... On a monthly basis... But when it is fortnightly is this a gift or a curse? Either way it's an inconvenience when ones ashram uniform is white pants (to represent purity)!

Reality Vs Spirituality

The complete renunciation of urges, desires and worldly possessions. Material objects don't, can't and shouldn't not be obtained if there is attachment. Vows of celibacy, impulses, urges, lust, greed, anger, the removal ego, no desires, live with dispassion, no attachment, no prejudices... Is living entirely like this for the average person even possible in a western world or even for the developing nations of the eastern world? In this day and age we are exposed to and often consumed by the acquisition of "THINGS"... it is no fault of our own, it is how the world and its economies operate. So if you are to survive in this world we are taught to study hard and work hard in order to provide for ourselves and our families... 

Over time we forgot the basics, and in forgetting the basics we were unable to tune in to what really made us happy and soon enough we found ourselves doing something we didn't really enjoy doing and then we realised that the only thing that makes 'me' happy and will continue to make 'me' happy is to spend 'my' life the way 'I' choose...and then we eventually come back to the basics...we discover that objects external to us are not what defines us. We ask the conventional questions who am I? what is my purpose? what really makes me happy?

So to bring it back to my first point, is living a completely spiritual path entirely possible with 100% purity? I think yes, if that is your destiny. But in my mind two worlds exist. Reality and Spirituality. So how do we apply spirituality in 'our' reality? Tough question. It seems that two extremes and ways of living are coming to a head east (spiritual) meets west (material) in this spiritual battle for freedom within. Striking a balance is easier than it sounds and applying eastern philosophy (whatever it may be) to a western life requires allot of commitment, discipline and awareness. Renouncing ones self to a life of celibacy may not be entirely possible but reducing ones urges to have sex for the sake of sex to feed ones ego may be something one is to consider if they are seeking happiness within. 

Using spirituality and exploring different philosophies as an approach to living, will over time naturally see the removal of desires, ego, attachment and therefore pain, anger and suffering. It is a gradual process that requires lots and lots of practice and belief in ones self to do so.

Scrabble

Nothing Like a good game of Scrabble!

Who am I, where do I come from, where am I going, how do I get there? All pretty simple questions yeah... Well depends I guess on who you are, where u came from, where you decided to go and how you got there!

Cryptic? It may be so... But let's face it, are these not the questions of life?  Some people seem to just glide effortlessly through the various stages and make it to home base with out a doubt. Others take the alternate route and discover different paths along the way, turn back for a little and discover another path and again find that it's not for them and then start to searching for a specific path that is better suited to what, based on what they have already found and have or haven't liked. Once you have found something that holds your interest it's like opening a can of worms... If only we were handed a GPS at school, or born with built in navigational chip perhaps this life would be easier...

Easier is none the wiser unfortunately. If we were handed life on a silver platter this existence would be absent. No point, no purpose, no fun!

Today was a little turning point for me in the ashram today. After much resistance and let loose ego, I came to a halt! A standstill!! 

Tears... Only a few, but needed to speak to swami... A monk. Immediately. To ask some questions... I know that no one can give you the answer but it's interesting to hear some likelihoods or another perception especially after one months observation.

I'm not sure where I'm going, I know where I do want to go but I think i have allot of cleaning up to do still. I'm not broken, dirty or in for repairs but I do need a tune up, and possibly an upgrade. This 'old' mentality that I still wear is getting 'ratty' and I need to change it. self defeating behaviors are totally 'old skool' and it's time to own my shit (feelings) and Saying I do when really I don't know the meaning behind these feelings and behaviors is... actually daunting and whole other board game.... What happened to scrabble?