perceiving reality

Perception is the minds filter to the way we decipher 'our' reality. 

what do you see?

Perception is mutable and capricious. It changes over time and from moment to moment. 

Perception is one of those gifts we receive as gold member of this life. Though unfortunately it has been infiltrated with a long history of evolution and bullshit. Whilst evolution is a dynamic variable, it is our individual birth right to seek our personal truth. Not of the world at large, but to understand our inner world and how we seamlessly are part of a collective consciousness all in search of a similar experience. Inner peace, happiness and freedom. 

It soon becomes apparent that all this 'bullshit' has manifested in order for seekers to find truth. Only those of worthy Inquisition and preparedness to change the 'filter' of their reality to see through the illusion of what we were conditioned to believe.

We (mankind) started simple, but because we are so smart we created an environment for ourselves that has forced us to place value upon material objects and status quo that are outside of our 'be-ing' that if we were to go to the grave we may still lay their unfulfilled.

Yes this is my perception, as I am totally aware that there are people who have achieved much success, have an abundant source of cash flow and fancy possessions and simultaneously recognise and appreciate a fortunate human experience. I highly commend them without cynicism. In fact, I admire them. 

My point or question then is really for the rest of us in search of our own truth. 

How can we cleanse our filter? 

How do we recondition the conditioning of evolution to create a personal revolution?

To answer this with virtue would be out of integrity to my higher self as my filter is undergoing an extreme makeover and at times it feel like the 'grit' causes a blockage that completely distorts all perception.

The only virtue to be cultivated in this process is one of trust and patience.  

It is a large probability that perhaps I am writing this because 'MY' perceived reality is that of simplicity. But in order to come to this 'simple' conclusion, there is the complexity of understanding the mind and ascertaining how to distinguish between which filter is sieving the information.

Q. How would our life be if we did not have a filter of perception?

It would seem impossible to have this wonderful human experience with out a perceiving mind. But I suspect that the process of reconditioning is about being able to see through and change ones perception to then come to a place of non-judgement and acceptance.   

The nature of the mind is to think and therefore perceive. In this beginning-less continuum of thoughts we can at any point consciously make the choice to step in and practice the cultivation of awareness and therefore see through perception. 

The question then becomes, where do I start? and my answer to this chestnut is...in the present moment.

This present moment 'bollocks' can be a frustrating response at times, especially when the ego wants to dance and all we want to do is bitch and moan and tell our story (which is again, is our perception). But like anything we have a choice...we can dance and let our minds lead us unconsciously to the dance floor as if we were on ecstasy or we can dance like no body is watching (chemical free) and let our soul show us the right moves.  

The Wind

I finally made it safely to Koh Phagan.

After a day of darkness with fear overwhelming me yesterday,(almost consuming me) I packed my bag to head off in discovery of my first 'find your flow' retreat. We have no one booked, but we are hopeful that people will be attending the workshops.

So I’m laying in my Bungalow listening to the hum of the wind and the crashing of waves. I actually do feel really secluded where I am. So while this week is not about retreat success it is about experiencing and finding the flow for myself.

For the last 3 months in Chiang Mai, I have been doing the work. I need a break from it. I need time to digest and apply. I love my life, my world and me. Sometimes I feel that it is hard to accept what is and go with the flow of life and remember that everything is, the way it is supposed to be. But if I was to take a giant leap back and look at the journey in retrospect, I would see the flowering of a wonderful human being lucky for her human experience.

Since I was 14 I remember that I always wanted to do what Liz wanted to do. Though when I was 14 I was living under my parents roof, getting suspended and eventually expelled and blasting Metallica, not only to piss my parents off but because it resonated with the feelings of frustration I felt growing up.

Childhood is another story, but in no way shape or form did I have a bad up bringing. I have the most amazing wonderful and supportive parents anyone could have ever have found. Their journey was necessary for them as much as me becoming a part of their world was for mine. I wouldn’t change a thing.

If they supported me creatively and recognised the potential of this dynamic little creature that is 'I'. I could honestly say that I would not be who I am today.

Back to that…I still have trouble processing the characteristics of my being. But as time goes by, especially in the last 3 months of being here in Chiang Mai. It is presented to me everyday that I am good at my work and totally in love with it.

It feels a little obnoxious to say because I have never thought of what I do as anything special. Essentially I am a personal trainer who now practices yoga and meditates. But ultimately I am morphing my skills of emotional intelligence, compassion and wisdom and combining them with my skills of physical fitness, nutrition and body awareness in to a program that can be accessed by anybody.

This acknowledgement has come to me after a long travel nanna nap, waking up to the powerful sound of the wind and waves crashing right at my door step of my Bungalow in Koh Phangan. I’m right on the beach. (Check it out)…

....The minute I walk out into the wind, I feel that it shifts and carries all my old, stale and negative energy away. Replenishing me with brand new prana.

I have said to people before in times of distress and anxiety. Things need to happen this way and cause you this pain in order for you to stop and check in. But, its not the content of the process that matters, but the process it self. So what’s going on really doesn’t matter its how you manage your attitude and perception of it that will reflect real growth and progress. But its also not about the progress it’s about acceptance, acceptance of where you are right now.

Fear

Friend or Foe...

In the end it seems to be your friend, but when I rose this morning it certainly was my foe.

Shitting my pants about the delivery of my first retreat. The desire for perfection leaves me feeling lost, scared and confused.

Though I know what I am doing is what feels right... I still have fear.

My ego is seems to be searching for constant approval from others to reassure 'it' that I am on the right path or something like that.

All I know is I didn't enjoy the feelings today but I made it to the airport nevertheless. So I am locked in!

I slowly move from fear into love...