The Unexpected...

I wrote a post once called expect the unexpected and once again this little pearl of wisdom continues to fulfill its legacy via the 'element of surprise'. 

Life without expectations is a far more interesting way to live life and take it as it comes...

Something happened this week that is even greater and wilder than any fantasy I could conjure up in my mind. But for the sake of the internet I will not turn the blog into erotica...though I should, could, and would very much love to...I must state 'that a lady never tells'. But I am not really a lady....LOL 

But this I can say, Lady - I am intrigued, captivated, curious and still in a mild state of shock...

Train blogging

So just wanting to write my first blog via the blogger iphone app. Sitting on a train going to visit my dream lover!! Nah... But I really am :)

Anyways, still feeling great to be in Sydney, but had a moment today where the thought of actually looking for a job seems daunting.

PT - to do the training thing and be based in a gym actually makes me feel a lil ill to the stomach. They all want a one year commitment and Jesus Christ I'm the commit-o-phob from all hell. Nothing like sheer commitment to make a girl question her motives.

Whatever Work - the thought of whatever work actually sounds the most appealing because I can do casual and try and do some PT as well.

So many options but not feeling like i wanna do anything other than train my ass off right now! Literally :-/

I know whats supposed to happen will happen and will happen is supposed to happen but the more i am here the more i wanna do and its just a question of what i want to do.

Fuck me, I'm talking in circles!

Home is where the heart is...

After almost a week at home I am feeling normalised, acclimatised and almost revitalised. I haven't caught up with too many peeps just as yet as I am really just trying to settle and find what feels right...

Home is always a good place to start...

I'm not sure what is to happen on the career front as I am torn once again between the idea of more travel and to study...my nerdy secret passion...information, knowledge and answers.

Here is the gist...

Why Travel?
Because I am young, no attachments, no children...pure and unadulterated freedom at my finger tips to do as I wish, how wish and when I wish...the gift of life really. I have two more continents that I just want to touch before I settle. I mean 100's of countries but I know and accept that you can't do it all in once life time...but you sure as hell can try!

Why Study?
Because I am the seeker of answers, the seeker of truth. My legislated destiny...to impart the knowledge upon others??? maybe! maybe not! But by studying Chinese Medicine I feel it will be the wrapping paper to the collection of knowledge I have accumulated, learned and experienced on this surreal experience of life!

Love...
It seems that I had allot of this ingredient early on in life; I was in and out of love like the weather. I got hurt, I hurt others, I let go, I moved on and since then and I have not been able to find someone worthy. A few candidates have appeared here and there and do hit the nail on the head but for whatever reason the cosmos and I are not vibrating on the same frequency to send me someone of the a similar capacity, consciousness or life level. While it is not an active search, I feel that if the part of me that wants to travel is greater than the part that wants to study I will always attract fly by relationships that are fulfilling in the present but not forever enduring. While being present and living moment to moment is nice...Love is also about being able to share your heart and mind with someone that continues to pursue their own dreams and life. I guess my fludity when it comes to life and love is not something that can be had by all. While I want the deep connection I still want the freedom...WOW! I sound bipolar at times...but answer me this...Is this a case of the chicken and the egg? or the rock and the hard place?

Anways...off to catch up with my boys and have some fun in Pyrmont. I love you Sydney, you always re-ground me! Give me 3 months and I know you will drive me up the wall.