what will bring me peace?

this way and that way,

upside down and inside out,

foggy waters, 

stormy clouds,

would life be easier as a pretzel all tied up in knots?

crsytal ball tell me what the future beholds!? if it were only this simple life would be dull.

ask these questions there will be no resolve...peace on the outside starts from within. 

below skin deep are calm waters and crystal mind...  peace and love the nectar of growth and harmony you will find! 

if you want to shine, do not compromise for the sake of someone else... it will bring destruction and chaos. 

sombre and sober

time goes by so slowly...when the heart feels lonely. distracted and diluted by booze all feels far from what was so real. its like i was just in it and now... well now im not. a hard snap of the rubber band quickly slaps you in the face to tell you this is not right this is not the love you live for and then here I am....

...to learn myself again... what a delight. how quickly we forget ones highest intelligence our souls desire...but this sombre lethargic energy of loss and longing forbodes my clarity. to be raw, to be real to be seen, 

i know i will be found again its the intention of the journey in the first place...but it must first be to purify my thoughts and to love thy self with compassion... 

great another year in india!! 

not sure...

sounds all to familiar especially if you are in my sphere of thoughts..especially recently. ha more than likely you are a derivative. a derivative of the sounds in mind that are incessantly here  to distract me from the truth of what needs to happen; would should or could. it doesnt matter anyways...im still not sure.

i want you, i dont, i love you but not sure, we can do this, no we cant, lets try again oh... we already have and look now... alone again, lost. another stupid argument! i did not get you, you did not get me this is not the way things are supposed to be. I wish could find the seamless connection with each other we both long for!! but ..... it keeps happening and hurts a little more each time. ouch! ...