perplex : perspex : perspective

per-plex: (of something complicated or unaccountable) Cause (someone) to feel completely baffled.
perspex: Solid transparent plastic
perspective: A mental view or outlook

Being 31 is a really weird age, for me anyway, and for many more out there I am sure. It seems that changing career paths here is common place. We have been working for almost 10-12 years now, a bit of travel here and there, explored some of the world, settled a little, know our selves better, know whats out there and what is possible. So we crave more, we want more, we strive for more, we begin to feel unsettled. We decide to change things, to break routine, to up heave any sort of stability and move in a different direction.

I’m sure there are some out there, whereby change freaks them out, makes them uneasy, scared, uncertain. But for me, I love all these qualities in change. I embrace it in fact. I’m like tactical response. But being reactive is different from being in control and being proactive as to the direction or the strategy you will follow to stage your life. In saying that, I also like to go with the flow. But going with the flow is difficult if you are adverse to change. Being able to respond and re-direct your life is a skill learned through experience and the ability to be open to life’s mysteries. Not knowing the potential outcome and being able to adapt readily is something that is acquired only when we have learnt from life’s lessons and are able to live by our own morals and values.

For me, being compassionate, loving, open and honest are some of the key values to being a good human being. For others, status, wealth, cars, houses and money may be of virtue. But stripping all of this away, our essence, our core none of this is necessary for our happiness.
What boggles my mind, every time I stress out about something silly is coming back to a neutral space and how in the grand scheme of things (world poverty, starving children, war) our core values are moving further and further away from Maslows Heirarchy of Needs!

Our stresses are created by us. The drive to WANT more, to BE more, to DO more.

Don’t get me wrong. I know we are from cities whereby our hierarchy of needs are different to that of a caveman. But it is so easy to get lost and caught up in “the rat race” that we no longer know what we want. We lose touch of what it is that drives us. There is going with the flow of life and going with the “flow” of life. By this I mean, to go with the flow of the mundane, routine, snakes and ladders. Or the “flow” of knowing what drives, keeps you passionate, stimulated and expressive to your essence.

I only realised this now...in 2011 after meeting a great girl. She is younger than me yet offered me loads of wisdom by being a direct reflection of me and what I needed to learn at this stage of my life. She and I are now apart as she is off pursuing her dream and career. ☺ …and now my path has changed and blocks in my mind have also being removed.

Since my return from London in 2007 I have really felt stuck. I have been in relationships with great girls that sooner rather than later come to an end because of them, traveling and doing what they want to do. I am not bitter about this, as now I can see that the message here was for me to get unstuck and do my own thing regardless of what anyone else is doing.
In retrospect as short and as sweet as these relationships were, each taught me something slightly different about Liz Smiz. But it really was the last love that was the straw that broke (lets say stroked) the camels back and propelled me into action. For that baby, I thank you.
More on this….

YO.ga

Yoga really is the love of my life. Why, because it is for me and right now I am for me. I have made decisions in the past based on love and the feeling at the time without thinking about what it is I truly want and need. I have always been told that I am open, wear my heart on my sleeve and have allot of love to give. Though this love and openness is not the same love and openness to myself. Its taken me almost 32 years to realise that (or 10 adult years).

So making this decision to go off and pursue my yoga dream is not only about acquiring status and getting the 200 hour teacher training certification. It is about me doing what I do best! That is adventure, change, adapting in uncertain situations, exploring my creative side and the most exciting of all, meeting new people and hearing their story. So though yoga and meditation is the focus of the trip, Its going to be the self exploration along the way that will be the highlights of my journey.

For the most part I say now I know who I am, what I like, what I dislike, but what I am struggling with is finding balance. That is, what makes me launch my self with bountiful energy out of bed every morning. Sure yoga does this as does traveling, but I think I am searching for the creative space in my head to find a way to tie all of these things together to create something to share with others.

To find this here in the city I am from, would only be half arsed attempt, here is why. Australia is a small continent with a young history, we are located at the end of the earth (though I'm happy with the hemisphere) and we are influenced by other cultures and lets face it, what form of movement originates here and is of spiritual decent.

Origins of cutting edge concepts or spiritual practices go back ions, like yoga in India, Tai Chi in China and Taiwan, Akido in Japan, Capoiera in Brazil... I'm pretty sure most of this happened before James Cook bumped into us. No disrespect Oz. You are my heart! In saying this, I am not saying that we as Aussies do not offer creative, innovative ideas and practices. We most definitely do. But traveling the world and experiencing other cultures and disciplines is so much more interesting than staying still...

I have to go to yoga...Namaste

~ SoRt IT ouT :-/ ~

Now that I have made the decision and commitment to change direction in my life and pursue my dream of doing my yoga teacher training and traveling. It seems, that as life naturally does, obstacles appear. In my case, this means lack of organisation and leaving things to way side or dusting under the carpet, or just being plain old forgetful. Seems to catch up with us in the end. Old debt, new debt, outstanding debt. All falls due today. End of financial year! yep.... EOFY!

Obviously these outgoings, do not support my endeavour to save save save. But as I do not know what is to become of the next six months, I have to cop all of this on the chin and make the debt repayments so that I can have a clear conscience while I am away and not worry about what it is I am to come back to upon my return??.

My iphone, also decided to die yesterday. Which sux, but I suppose it is better to die now than to die while I am traveling. My laptop is also a little sick, but I am just gonna have to deal with it too. grrrr.

Obstacles are character building. My lesson here, is to face things head on as and when they arise. Being pro active rather than reactive to forseen negative repercussion. Its not like I didnt know that if I didnt pay my tax bill that an organisation like the ATO would not charge interest. Duh! But as I was not earning enough money 2 months ago, I left this for 12 months and now....well now I have to pay it! as well as lodge 2009, 2010 and 2011! Yep...its all fun and games right now.

Anyways, yoga my one true love is on this morning and I will go there and silence the mind, even if for 90 mins. Its the best 90 minutes of my day! This WILL sort it out :)

loo.sin' my shit

Working in a cafe part time to get me the extra cash to begin my true journey, is a stressful journey. I try to look at it positively, but lets face it...common sense is not that 'common'. It seems that commoners that are common don't have an abundance of it. Listen to me bitch. Small minds!...yeah yeah, I know. But when you are there for a purpose, to step away from what was formerly stressful to you to pursue something different and less stressful, then it become stressful for the 5 hours you are there, its just a frustrating experience!... The difference is, I get over it quickly. Though I do more often than not, feeling like a glass of wine after my shifts. I usually don't have one, as I am not a massive drinker. Though I will smoke a cigarette.

On Sunday, during my shift, I lost my SHIT, bad! the owner was all over me for not being more efficient and commanding the less experienced around. To be honest, I didn't know it was my responsibility and the fact of the matter is that, one is just gonna do her own thing anyway, so ignore me basically. The other, cannot speak English and I don't have time to translate and the other who I love and adore, it was her 3rd shift... So, when I cop blame for all of it and am tied to the coffee machine, there is not allot I can do...except, loose my shit.

Interesting to see that I still have a little temper that can flare up. Nice to have that fire, but needs to be channeled more efficiently....working on it :)

karma.co.ma

I love this Massive Attack track... it brings back memories of so many things, mostly my London days, situations I got my self involved with. In a relationship, a Polish girl...eeeeekkk

Though the reason I think about it today is perhaps due to an unforeseen circumstance occurring and me being unable to control it, even though I should have and especially because I know the repercussion of such an instance an occurring. There have been, in this instance, no repercussions yet. Which is why I think of the word Karma.

Do I believe in Karma?...HELL YEAH!

Based on my understanding; this is, put simply, "if you do something that hurts someone, then soon enough you will get yours". It may not be from that person, or it may not be in the same context, but you will suffer some form of hurt or upset.

Though, actually writing this makes it sound silly...good and bad, pain and suffering, are all a perception anyway.

Hmmmm referring to Wiki for a little clarity and insight...Ahhhh great, typically so much info out there. But Wiki says it better than I do, so here is the copy that I read.

Hinduism

"The idea that the moral quality of one's actions influences one's rebirth....Karma in Hinduism is also considered to be a spiritually originated law. Many Hindus see God's direct involvement in this process; others consider the natural laws of causation sufficient to explain the effects of karma"

Karma is not punishment or retribution but simply an extended expression or consequence of natural acts. Karma means "deed" or "act" and more broadly names the universal principle of cause and effect, action and reaction, that governs all life. The effects experienced are also able to be mitigated by actions and are not necessarily fated. That is to say, a particular action now is not binding to some particular, pre-determined future experience or reaction

Karma is not fate, for humans act with free will creating their own destiny".

Buddhism

"Buddhism links karma directly to the motives behind an action. Motivation usually makes the difference between "good" and "bad" actions; but included in the motivation is also the aspect of ignorance such that a well-intended action from an ignorant mind can subsequently be interpreted as a "bad" action in the sense that it creates unpleasant results for the "actor".

So based on this insight, Karma definitely does exist. God Damn it! But on a positive note, this also means that good Karma exists too.

What I can't believe about this situation is that I was attracted from the get go. There was definitely something there, that was just left as is. The situation at that point in time and still at this point in time does not permit, it was not going to be possible and I would just be kidding myself. I got involved and fell in love with another (post for another day). Anyways... much time has passed and things became more relaxed. A drink here, a drink there, text here and there, nothing that would indicate anything more. But in a matter of hours this changed! You really have to be careful what you wish for, because in this case, putting the energy out there with several shots of vodka, is a recipe for karma.

...expect the unexpected...

One of my favourite things to say is "expect the unexpected". Because...By living without expectation it is much harder to be let down and far easier to let life just flow with surprises.

It seems when we have expectations (especially of others) we set ourselves up to being let down. I'm not just being cynical (I promise), as this can also happen with the beautiful things in life, for example, when we are happy being single and just doing our own thing (when we least expect it)...someone walks into our life and takes us by surprise, making our life at that moment a little more colourful and interesting. It may lead somewhere, it may not...and thats the beauty of going with lifes flow.


If we knew when things were going to happen each and every time at that very moment, there would be no space for the magic of life.

All the great words to describe the unexpected moments on our path ", fate, destiny, serendippity, encounters, chances, risks" There would be none of that, because we already know. How boring would that be?

Living with an open mind, free from judgement and expectations enables us to attract to our lives what we need to learn. Having faith that the universe will present situations (good and bad) to your life when you are ready to experience and continue to grow as a student of life. Nothing that comes up in this life are we not ready to handle. If we weren't we wouldn't be in that situation, so sometimes learning to accept things for the way they are and just 'being' can be the lesson in itself.

Pink eye - 'the way we look at the world'.

A little update...on 15th June 2012

What do you see?

I decided to update this post this morning as this is the 2nd time since writing this original post that I have had my case of conjunctivitis or pink eye.

It only happens in one eye at a time which I think is wildly strange!

Due to the inquiring nature of my being, I wondered why this was happening...Why do I only get pink eye in one eye?

If I am to think about it, the 'eye' is how we see our world. Does this mean that I am not looking at things correctly, or am I am missing the point of something major going on in my present world or do I need to look at a situation differently.

This happened only about 3 weeks ago. To help ease it, I stayed in my apartment, meditated on questions and thoughts that I was having at that time and slept. Literally, the next morning, it was gone!

~~~~~~~~2011 Original Post~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I had to take the night off work tonight. It was only a 4 hour shift and I thought that re-cooperation of my mild case of pink eye was much more important. I only seem to have this flare up when I am extremely run down and exhausted.

...again, because I am a dork, I looked up the spiritual meaning of having eye problems, allergies, or things like conjunctivitis (pink eye) and what I commonly found is that most problems for the eyes represent metaphorically a blindness or unwillingness to see something in your past, present or your future clearly. Manifesting as an eye problem, if you are in tune with your spiritual self, this is like a little alarm going off.

I can relate to this, but as it regularly flares up, every 6-8 weeks when I am totally zapped, I'm not 100% sure the spiritual meaning is relevant to being run down. Maybe the eye thing is telling me to slow down and take your time, 'look' (with your eyes) how much you are doing. Is it all necessary?

My response....YES!!

I'm having tonight off....chilling at my parents then, I'm gonna keep smashing it, burn it both ends, work wise, training wise and yoga wise. Not very interested in the drinking and going out much these days as its counter -productive to my savings plan. Once I depart Sydney town, I will be very much on the go slow and stress will be a distant memory.

Still 13 weeks to go!

better out than in...

...and no, I'm not talking about gas!

I'm talkin' thoughts, cognition, brain activity; little neurons that emit chemical and electrical impulses by way of our nervous system which reveal to our mind the many random tangents (thoughts) that occur by the tens of thousands each day. These thoughts help us decipher, interpret and make sense of the world (sometimes). Based on our experiences and conditioning; self-reflection, introspection, contemplation and logic are very unique to each individual... anyways, that was a tangent in itself in case you didn't notice...

better out than in...I have been blogging 'heaps'. Feels like I have lots on mind (nothing new) in regards to so many thins, letting go of someone I unexpectedly and suddenly fell in love with, working 1000 hours a week, paying off debt, doing yoga, not spending enough time with my parents or friends.

The best part about having this blog is that I don't have to bore the shit out of my friends, I can bore the world instead. Seriously though, for anyone that has stuff on their mind and can't slow down their thoughts or process them fast enough, get it out onto paper if you can handle the hand cramps, or in my case start a 'a la simple' blog. The beauty of the technology age. A quill and ink would never work today... anyways, my point is Just get it out! I look at it like this, if you don't have an outlet all the thoughts have no where to go and will just to continue to bounce around in your mind. Making them tangible words that exist in reality make them real and what you do with them after that is entirely up to you. Some thoughts become ideas, some thoughts are funny and pointless and have very little significant meaning but to be able to re read them and wonder what the hell you were thinking when you wrote them in the first place is simply a nice thing to be able to do. We are constantly changing and remembering what and how we felt at certain points though out our lives is an impossible task and being able to capture these thoughts weather we keep them or let them go is a nice choice to have.

So just to tell you how my mental processing capabilities have changed since my return from London in 2007 to date 22 June 2011 I have really felt a tremendous shift as to how my mind works, the way I  deal with people, situations, and life. Rather than being my mind and my thoughts I now acknowledge that thoughts come and go and rather than giving breathe to them (especially the negative self defeating ones) I sit an observe. By this I mean, I actively and consciously decide which thoughts to pursue.

So in case we forgot what I was writing about, because I did for a moment...to sum it up... high level overview... I have lots on my mind and I'm gonna to write!

taking time out...

I know as of right now I am doing way too much. But I currently have no other option. Debt recovery, that is me recovering debt whilst trying to save for my Indian adventure. So between now and then its "suck it up little princess" and crack on. I have this odd condition, whereby my head falls off, only kidding, where my left eye swells, like a severe case of 'pink eye' when I am under slept, exhausted and stressed. i.e. taking too much on. But hey, this was my choice. It was either re-build my personal training business and jump on the financial and emotional roller coaster or work 1000 hours per week in hospitality. I chose the latter because I just don't have the same drive or energy to do it that I did 10 years ago. I still have drive but its not geared toward being a PT anymore. So taking a few months off to travel and do yoga TTC and be in my own company is exactly what I need.

alternative headspace days...

I know we all have them...

but today, I thought I would write about it. Because I don't particularly feel I would gain anything or add value to anyone I would choose to speak to. I know tomorrow is a new day so I'm just gonna let this little gray cloud hover over me before I go to sleep, and I know that writing also makes me feel better. "Better out than in"

So, why is the head space in an alternative state. Well, I got an email today from a course I stupidly signed up to earlier this year, and since pulled out as a) couldn't afford it and didn't really think that through when I signed up b) it was oriental psychology and I'm not sure I was ready for the content that we were going over. Very in depth and confronting as a 31 year old lil person. Sometimes its nice to know things and have knowledge, but sometimes its also nice to remain ignorant and learn from lifes lessons. Anyways, the email I received demanded that I return all course materials and pay $1000 for the 4 lessons that I attended. Wholly Fuck! All I am thinking about is my trip to India, working my ass off and saving as much of it as possible. So my hands are tied, I am trying to delay paying for it as long as I can and disappear to India. I'm sure Karma will bite me in the ass, but...generally I am a good person, with good intentions, lots of love to give, considerate of others, and just a positive little energy beam :) ~

Subsequent to receiving this wonderful news, I receive an email from the woman I love, who is currently working as a dancer on a cruise liner (Vancouver to Alaska) for the next 6 months. She has been in quarantine for 48 hrs, was on a drip, had a needle jabbed into her ass and was in an isolation room. Shes got the next couple of nights off to re-cooperate but is much better.

We Skyped...So nice to see her face. I say this because we decided that the timing for a relationship at both points in our lives is not great. Well, she decided this. I totally understand of course and want her to pursue her career and her dreams. As anyone that loves someone would. But for the first time in a long time, I felt contented (if i can use the word that way) for the first time even if it was for a short time. I know people say there are plenty more fish in the sea, but I'm not a big fan of seafood, so I want this fish :)...The other thing I came to realise in meeting this lovely, intellectually challenging and stimulating catch is that, I know not to settle. By this I mean, really going after what you want, the person you want. If someone does not tick all the major boxes, then it will only be a matter of time until you start feeling the itch, discontent, incomplete. Having a true understanding of what 'floats your boat' emotionally will save you time and heart brake over and over again.

I am completely aware that the universe may not send this gem back my way, but at least I will have a better awareness of what qualities are vital in the next person. So I guess it is here that I can say, situations and lifes gifts (no matter how they are presented, good or bad) open your heart and mind to new possibilities and ways of looking at things. Like a process of elimination. It can be a tough heart wrenching road, but staying atuned to your inner values will allow you to see the lesson in every situation, even if it does not feel like it at the time.

I can be a bit of a spritual dork at times and on a daily basis there are little messages or incidents that occur and force me to think, why did that happen? what does it mean? Not to the point of ridiculous, but for example, I subscribe to a fantastic blog called www.tinybuddah.com and the quote today read "to get something you never had, you have to do something you never did".

In regard my life journey / change in career path; this got me thinking and made me smile.....because, I am about to set off and do something I never did. Travel to India is allot more 'uncertain' than travel to Europe or Thailand. I am working harder than ever in hospitality (not fitness) to allow myself the freedom to go and focus on me and be me in a foregin land, acquire new skills, and be in my own company, observe how I interact with total strangers, or in akward situations etc.

In regards to matters of the heart, I really still do love her. For the first time, I am not allowing it to rule my thoughts and be all that I focus on. The old Liz, would be crying for weeks, unable to function and constantly be calling friends to talk about it. This Liz, knows what she wants for herself and understands that although we may not be together right now and off doing our own thing, able to sleep with whomever and basically stay connected with no expectations or promises and minimal contact. This is not something I could of done before. But I think a greater force out there (maybe my own inner strength and wisdom) has kept me calm about the whole thing.

The quote that comes to mind....

“If you love someone, set them free.

If they come back they're yours;

if they don't they never were.”

Sometimes when you find something nice, you really do have to savour it and be present to it when it is right in front of you. Because you never know when something in life will just change.

If it so happens that our paths never cross again or we go in opposite directions, its still nice to know we shared what we shared.

Aching shoulder, lack of sleep and a case of pink eye...

Wow!

Today I feel amazing....NOT! I have been sitting at my desk this morning with a tennis ball pressed into my rhomboid. I wedge the ball between the seat and the point of pain in my shoulder and manoeuvre myself to find triggering points of pain. Take deep breaths and try to relax into it. The relief is only temporary.

I went to yoga also today, to try to stretch it out, to no avail. I walked out of class feeling pretty stoned yet somewhat zen, the post sensation of a powerful life changing yoga class no doubt.

I get home, have a shower and look in the mirror and I look tired, like mega tired and exhausted. So tired that my left eye starts to swell and droop. Yep....DROOP! it looks terrible. I always seem to get this eye irritation (Pink EYE) when I am ultra exhausted.

In the last 2 weeks I have been pulling 50 hour weeks. I know its all worth it in the end, but all I would really love to do tomorrow morning (well, every morning) is to wake up to no alarm. ahhhhhh that would be lovely!...but oh so unlikely.

Whats keeping me motivated and more focused than I can ever remember is the motivation to go travelling and stay in India to do my teacher training in Sept. Only 13 weeks!

it's on...

I was accepted into my 200 hour teacher training yoga course last week. In a little place called Virindavan. It's 150km out of New Delhi in India, it takes about 2.5 hours to get there by bus. Vrindavan is one of the holiest cities of India. The spiritual wealth of hundreds of temples permeates the atmosphere. Must be the home of yogi bear. Only kidding!! The spiritual practice of yoga of course :)

Since 2007, my return from London to Sydney. I have been seeking out the best yoga course to attend, but as it turned out all these things (distractions, commitments, obstacles) in my life kept popping up, (which has kept me here till now), and of course going wrong, meeting people, falling in and out of love, breaking up, tears, more self discovery, being hostage to my business, being in debt all the signs of an urgent change required. Never mind! 4 years later, the time has come. Change in its clearest form has just bit me in the ass. (I'll talk about what instigated the change another time, its funny how that happened to)

Currently I am working my ass off in a hectic cafe to sort out my finances. Its no where near as lucrative as the potential of running a squeaky clean personal training business, but my heart is just not in it at the moment. I have continued to work with my favourite clients that add value to me. Its working very well.

Just now, I have sent off my application and photo to finalise all paperwork required, which means all the fun stuff now. Visa, Malaria tablets, Flights, Itinerary, Accommodation...weeeee. Like a pig in mud!

Travel, freedom, yoga, freedom, travel. All my favourite things rolled into one little adventure.

isn't it funny...

Had a good ol' conversation today with a friend that's about 10-12 years younger than me. Some days when my head space is alternative (shit mood) I often wish I didn't feel a certain way and could just detach, suck it up, let go and move on. So while providing a friendly ear and some elderly advice :) I realised for my self, that some...actually all of the time we have to learn for ourselves when it comes to matters of the heart. But its interesting how often as human beings we instinctively seek the acceptance and validation from others before ourselves. We want to love others before we love ourselves, we want to nurture and care for others before we care for ourselves.

But, its not until we get to a certain point in our life, usually older and wiser or major pain and / or heart brake or other major changes that we realise this life is for us. To discover like a heat seeking missile what makes us tick, get up and out of bed every morning and move toward our target, our happiness, our true self. If we choose to worry about what others think and expect from us, we simply create our own anxiety and stress and continue to question our own identity and therefore confidence.

Intuitively we know what we want, but how we get there and the situations that arise along the way that challenge our determination to get there is what tests us and strengthens us.

The question for me now, is if everything happened so effortlessly would I be stimulated? would this mean that this is the right path because nothing is getting in my way?....or.....do situations and challenges arise because they want to test us to see if we are worthy, do we want it bad enough to make the cut, our the obstacles actually road blocks telling us we hit a dead end and to take another route.

For me, I think its a little bit of both and in the end if we go with the flow of life and listen for major cues, instinctively and intuitively we go toward our happiness. Sometimes we take many wrong turns before we find the right way. I'm never discouraged by mistakes as long as the next time around I do something differently to produce a different outcome. Even if, these mistakes feel right for a period of time, I never regret them. Though what I do regret is getting my self into a "Tizzy Lizzy" about it before seeing the value in the lesson in front of me. So, how I live my life now, is allot different from the Liz Smiz 12 years ago (thank god) I Do things for me, that make me feel good, that make me smile.

sometimes...you gotta do what you gotta do!

so, in getting my self out of debt and working towards changing my life's direction. I am working in this crazy busy cafe close to my house. If I could use any words right now, I choose. OMG! ....what a mess. I just wanna rock up and do what I need to do in order to earn my cash and get the hell out. But no, not that simple. Everyone else that works there, although they need the cash too. They do not seem to know or want to work as a team. A few of us seamlessly and cohesively work well and get into a flow of getting what we need to done and still have some fun. But others, talk to customers way too much, so only do dining, some wont do dishes, others just like to tell others what to do. I, on the other hand am happy to do it all. But I particularly like doing coffees flat out as it makes time go quicker and I control the whole process and no one can get in my face. Well thats my little rant for the day. Only 13 weeks more till I get outta here. So gotta do what I gotta do and block out the stuff in between.

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Welcome to my life!

It's funny how we can just use the web to write our most random thoughts and inner emotion...put it out there into the universe and wait to see what the universe sends back. 

I created this blog, because like a missile gone AWOL and eventually returning to its intended course to track and annihilate its target. I like most people at often times do lose sight of my goals and my sense of purpose. As of now, I have finally found my way again...where that is?? you will see. But its a great vision.

There is a high probability that I could bore many millions of you to tears, perhaps billions. But on the flip side I could also captivate one or two unique individuals and remind us, that as little homo sapiens, resident to this planet called 'Earth' we have a mind. A mind that is designed to think and allow us to experience this human existence.

As the nature of the mind is to think... it is our goal to understand it. Rest assured we are all here to learn and are all seeking our higher conscious purpose. It is now clear and reassuring to know that we have to go through these ups and downs, have good days and bad days, highs, lows, peaks, troughs, dark, bright,easy and hard days to allow us to see the truth, learn, practice and evolve. 

I could ramble endlessly about life and how much I love living it so I thought a blog would be a good 'outlet' for my many wonderful RANDOM TANGENTS!

WARNING: I come with a "read at your own risk" sticker.  

"Thoughts are random, erratic and possibly insightful. Like a student of life, I will continue to make mistakes, hopefully not the same ones (law of diminishing returns) hehehe :-) and I will forever keep trying, striving, improving and evolving"!..