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Liz Smiz

I love that we never stop learning, changing and evolving. Well by choice this is! Whats really interesting, if you take the time to stop and have a "squiz", a little "looksie wooksie" if you will. To check in once in a while and observe the distance you have come. 

I was discussing with a friend today past situations that cause us pain and how at the time when they are happening and when we are so deep in it that we do not realise that these are lessons waiting to be realised. We know better deep down, but forget almost every time. So again the story goes like a pantomime,  to determine our credibility and hence worthiness to grow from these "lessons" it seems, lessons like to play fancy dress and camoflage themselves as pain, hurt, struggle, tears, and frustration only for us to later realise that this is a character building exercise for the mental elite. We must at various points in our life go through SHIT to guide us closer to our higher purpose. We are all here for a purpose and what that purpose is, is our own journey. To be created, coloured and decorated any way we like, our own huge piece of blank canvas.

As we learn, change and evolve the journey can catapult us in a totally different direction, often times we find our selves caught up in something and think holy cannoli, how did I get here?, or why is this happening to me?. 

We can often get stuck in a web of destructive thoughts that send us in to a downward spiralling vortex where by patience, self awareness and self acceptance, are the staple ingredients to understanding that we are only presented with each challenge when and only when we are ready to learn. Failing to realise this and choosing to wear the "I’m a victim" attitude t-shirt can't, won't and doesn't fly. It will only leave us feeling low, defeated, anxious, possibly depressive and soon enough faced with a similar situation yet again. So yes, discovering your purpose and over coming challenges can be difficult. But it is this in itself that is the essence to our self discovery. In other words, if life was a glorious bed of petunias, water Lily's and lotus flowers as lovely as it would look, it might become a little hard to maintain throughout the seasons. Its much more interesting to encounter challenges (grow other flowers) and know that no matter what you will make it out the other side. Having said that, it is also about training the mind and trusting that you are fully equipped with weapons and devices to do what’s right for you…and if you make an error i.e feel hurt, hurt someone else or do not achieve the desired outcome then it is up to you what you take from that lesson.

I know that this is easier said than done. Believe you, me, If anyone is, I am the master of $#@% ups and complicated situations, then I'm your girl. I often (always) act on impulse, and go with the flow (such is life) and wear my heart on my sleeve to my own benefit and detriment at the same time. 

When I reflect upon the last 2 years I feel as if I have been in intensive, rigorous resilience training and all of a sudden I am a conditioned mental athlete, agile, open minded and resilient and much lighter on life. 

If I was an object or could be the creator of an object I would be a translucent permeable bubble, indestructable like titanium (strong), light hearted, filled with helium (love) and my personal mantra is "what you see is what you get".