I'm not too sure if I like my karma yoga or not. Though it is easy and does not require me to work it interferes with my free time which is already limited and restricted to leaving the ashram for only 2hrs per day. Which if u compare this to the amount of time we do satsang is also 2 hrs!!
I feeling very pissed off and frustrated right about now. I am wide awake and the lights are out. I want a cigarette and it is not possible because it is against ashram rules. I want to eat and drink coffee right now and it too is against ashram rules. I totally feel that I am being resistant to what opportunity lay before me but I guess I will learn more about these little erks that piss me off so badly right now.
Having to stick to such a routine schedule is simply just going to make me feel stuck. Right now I am having trouble seeing the insight in this lesson so will probably continue to bitch and wine until I do. I'm sure it will be an amazing self discovery but until then hear me roar!!
PS. I'm two weeks in and have swapped Karma Yoga. Im not sure if this is good Karma or not. Yet to be determined!
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