100 miles per hour

My Brain

Jesus Christ...my head is traveling 100 mph right now, this very second. So many blogs are about to happen tonight, right here and right now. Obviously hoping for some clarity and need an outlet immediately.

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1. Just got back to Pai after a torturous visa run (blog to come)

2. Tomorrow, am doing a 24 hour fast slash liver and gallstones cleanse, which means lock down in my room.

3. Heading to a monastery this weekend, to do a 10 day silent meditation (while all the while I have a squillion things whirling around in my mind) probably not practising the power of now.

4. Want my mum to come and visit me in April, but want to have an apartment and job sorted

5. My best friend from Dubai also wants to come and visit and I am dying to see her too but have so much on, but need to make that happen.

6. Have my TEFEL course work I need to complete so that I can then look for a job come April.

7. Have had a girl on my mind for months now and I am wondering why...

8. Need to earn money and live cheap

9. Need to get back to Pai after the monastery and kick ass in Muay Thai, because cannot currently proceed to do so because I am smoking like a trooper!

10. Just want everything to happen yesterday. I.e. I want to be in my life, where my mind is. Feeling so not present right now and I think that 10 days in silence will definitely help me disconnent and reflect upon the journey so far.

These are most definitely a high level overview of whats happening inside, but it feels like there is more. I have had a few interesting conversations the past couple of days with different guys I have met along the way and it makes me really feel that I am bipolar. To what degree, I am not sure. To be determined.