what a ride...

The Incredible hulk roller coaster - Florida (What a RUSH!)

Seriously eh...I'm finally getting it (slow learner at times) but its not science fiction...you really do have to take the ups and downs and turn them around and know that they happen for a reason. Though it does feel pretty when you go through the 'shit' and come out the other side lighter and brighter :) and the light bulb comes on. What was all the negativity and self doubt for?

Side bar - I find it totally intriguing and very annoying, that the misfortune in our human conditioning is that we tend to take set backs so personally and get really shitty with our selves when things don't happen to expectations. I know that all the motivational theory encourages us to have positive internal monologue that suggests we push through these times and keep on keeping on. Motivational theory is fantastic and thank someone for it, but the question is, why is it there in the first place...? anyways... commentary for another blog at another time, I'm way to positive right now. Yew!

I'm guessing this leg of my journey has entirely been about being able to observe myself and recognising that frustrating feeling I get inside when things don't happen the way I want them to happen when I want and need them to happen.

The ultimate human virtue, "cultivating patience"... (How many times have I heard this?) with your self and with others and trusting that things happen if and when they should happen. I know it sounds all virtuous and stuff...but we all know its a hard rock to climb this cultivation process. It's like living in the desert and trying to grow vegetables at times. But 'apparently' with practice and with patience we do get there. In the case of these vegetables, maybe not so. But you get the drift :P

I cannot put into words right now, the energy that is buzzing through my body. So many opportunities and doors to open that excite, inspire and that therefore create more energy and opportunities. Its like, finally getting your veggie garden up and running (sustainably of course) and fertilising and nurturing your plants as if they were your thoughts and ideas. The creativity and flow happens naturally because you are in this positive space, fertilising and nurturing your self just as you would your Eco friendly garden that feeds you.

I'm sure your picking up what I'm putting down. Enough 'lovey dovey' bullshit. I'm finally starting to get it and it feels good!...