Ahhhh the C word that resonates the least in my sphere of understanding. The cerebral cortex in this area is neither black, white nor grey, I truly believe it was erased through my youth through bad experiences, disappointment and heart break. I actually believe it could be transparent or some what similar in nature to the black hole....yeah thats right...that part of the solar system that gravity does not allow anything to escape. Not even light, hence why its black!
Hmmmmm how did I get black hole and commitment into the one paragraph? I know...because its me and my mind does crazy shit...blame the monkey.
But if you think about it. If commitment lived in this black hole, my head, and through past experiences and conditioning, the dark hole, gravity (fear) is actually keeping me from allowing the light to escape. Love and Trust!
Wow, science can and does answer the metaphysical...So back to the topic of commitment...
I definitely know that I can and will make the commitment to something if I know its the right commitment, thats why its a commitment isn't it? You commit to what feels right to you.
Relationship: This is the only time that games are not fun! Tell me what you want? If its not in alignment with me then its probably not going to flow or be organic. To flow in an encounter or a situation you both have to want similar things or be in the same place, if not...its just a head fuck. Anything that is wishy washy is far to difficult for this monkey (skating toward the black hole of no commitment). While going with the flow and organics is what I am all about...If the flow is not natural and comes with the insatiable consumption of vital head space that fills with doubt, insecurity and fear, then wtf.
Mobile Phone Contracts: This is just straight up bullshit. Why 2 years for a communication device. Is that not slightly deluded...extreme my attitude may be, but really, 24 months? If I was held hostage by the simplicity of an iphone maybe I could branch out...
A Job: I have accepted that employment is not my forte. I am far better at doing my own thing...but to be feeling like this at this point in time has me questioning.
Life: This I certainly can commit to. As a citizen of life I promise to keep pursining dreams and achieving goals. My solem dedication to my human existence, my higher self and of course the big ol' crazy universe. Or put simply; I will never give up the commitment to make a commitment. Ahhhh thats a bit cute, my first sign of commitment.
Hmmmmm how did I get black hole and commitment into the one paragraph? I know...because its me and my mind does crazy shit...blame the monkey.
But if you think about it. If commitment lived in this black hole, my head, and through past experiences and conditioning, the dark hole, gravity (fear) is actually keeping me from allowing the light to escape. Love and Trust!
Wow, science can and does answer the metaphysical...So back to the topic of commitment...
I definitely know that I can and will make the commitment to something if I know its the right commitment, thats why its a commitment isn't it? You commit to what feels right to you.
Relationship: This is the only time that games are not fun! Tell me what you want? If its not in alignment with me then its probably not going to flow or be organic. To flow in an encounter or a situation you both have to want similar things or be in the same place, if not...its just a head fuck. Anything that is wishy washy is far to difficult for this monkey (skating toward the black hole of no commitment). While going with the flow and organics is what I am all about...If the flow is not natural and comes with the insatiable consumption of vital head space that fills with doubt, insecurity and fear, then wtf.
Mobile Phone Contracts: This is just straight up bullshit. Why 2 years for a communication device. Is that not slightly deluded...extreme my attitude may be, but really, 24 months? If I was held hostage by the simplicity of an iphone maybe I could branch out...
A Job: I have accepted that employment is not my forte. I am far better at doing my own thing...but to be feeling like this at this point in time has me questioning.
Life: This I certainly can commit to. As a citizen of life I promise to keep pursining dreams and achieving goals. My solem dedication to my human existence, my higher self and of course the big ol' crazy universe. Or put simply; I will never give up the commitment to make a commitment. Ahhhh thats a bit cute, my first sign of commitment.
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