It must be those 2 voices sounding off again. One of logic, stability and adulthood and the other a creative artist waiting to explode with love, freedom, passion and the opportunity to set off on the next journey.
While it has only been 4 weeks since my return to my roots, Sydney...I have some many options, opportunities and potential to create something stable for my self. Though there is an equal part of me that wants nothing more than to be free.
But I am free right? but it seems that the lifestyle that I want to live and the career path that I have chosen are not succinct. In other words (God damn it) you cannot have your cake and eat it too! Why not?
So while a few things have come my way and fallen into place, I have made no concrete decision that effect the ejector seat button if I so desire to press it. A mobile phone contract and a gym membership are the least of worries.
The decision to take on full time study however is slowly nawing away at me and I am going to give this some serious thought, maybe a little hike to the mountains or a day at the beach to really feel what it is I want to do. I now know I am that point of which I need to specialise in something. Something to immerse myself and my energy that will deliver a given output. Its been a while...and my brain absolutely has the capability to do so, in fact it can do anything I fully invest myself into. Hmmmm maybe commitment to a degree for me, is just the commitment I am looking for? I find out more tomorrow about the specifics of Full Time Chinese Medicine Degree...holy shit. Even writing it feels different.
Travel or Study...those are the two minds! or Be free or Not be free. hmmmmmm
While it has only been 4 weeks since my return to my roots, Sydney...I have some many options, opportunities and potential to create something stable for my self. Though there is an equal part of me that wants nothing more than to be free.
But I am free right? but it seems that the lifestyle that I want to live and the career path that I have chosen are not succinct. In other words (God damn it) you cannot have your cake and eat it too! Why not?
So while a few things have come my way and fallen into place, I have made no concrete decision that effect the ejector seat button if I so desire to press it. A mobile phone contract and a gym membership are the least of worries.
The decision to take on full time study however is slowly nawing away at me and I am going to give this some serious thought, maybe a little hike to the mountains or a day at the beach to really feel what it is I want to do. I now know I am that point of which I need to specialise in something. Something to immerse myself and my energy that will deliver a given output. Its been a while...and my brain absolutely has the capability to do so, in fact it can do anything I fully invest myself into. Hmmmm maybe commitment to a degree for me, is just the commitment I am looking for? I find out more tomorrow about the specifics of Full Time Chinese Medicine Degree...holy shit. Even writing it feels different.
Travel or Study...those are the two minds! or Be free or Not be free. hmmmmmm
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