10th Oct 2011
I chose to skip satsung tonight.
Well I chose to because I'm not a big fan of chanting and worship. I feel that my presence and attending of this course is me showing my respect and belief in something above myself. I do not want to sound arrogant and therefore ignorant but in keeping an open mind to the teachings and practice of Indian tradition by way of spiritual practice I feel that the chanting twice per day is a little too much for me. I will continue to attend all sessions to show that I am not just being a stubborn Liz smiz westerner that is not prepared to change her ways and adapt, I will try the chanting when I am ready but I am really struggling to believe in it.
I chose to skip satsung tonight.
Well I chose to because I'm not a big fan of chanting and worship. I feel that my presence and attending of this course is me showing my respect and belief in something above myself. I do not want to sound arrogant and therefore ignorant but in keeping an open mind to the teachings and practice of Indian tradition by way of spiritual practice I feel that the chanting twice per day is a little too much for me. I will continue to attend all sessions to show that I am not just being a stubborn Liz smiz westerner that is not prepared to change her ways and adapt, I will try the chanting when I am ready but I am really struggling to believe in it.
Thank goodness for a "notes pad" on the iPhone. Without it writing in the middle of the morning would he impossible...
So I'm a week in and it 4.35 am on 16 oct 2011... :-)We have to be waking up soon for satsang. I skipped it again last night because twice a day feels like a little too much. I'm sure this is lots of ego consciousness supporting my initial and ever so valid belief that was chanting super mantras Hare Krishna style was not for me. Now considering I am a super stubborn mutha so and so at the best of times when it comes to jamming religion and belief systems down ones throat. Having me attend twice a day and then asking me to sing about it is just not going to happen.... What did I do instead... Well couldn't get myself off because I also have 7 room mates! All lovely and wonderful but nevertheless, privacy is not going to be part of my ashram experience :) inner stillness and peace is the selected out come here. So mind fucking myself or having wild and illustrious fantasies about a desirable female... I read shantaram.
A book that once you pick it up is so hard to put down. But with our militant schedule I barely have time to pick it up. So skipping satsang seemed like the only valid reason or means to enable me to pick up this epic tale of a novel.
A book that once you pick it up is so hard to put down. But with our militant schedule I barely have time to pick it up. So skipping satsang seemed like the only valid reason or means to enable me to pick up this epic tale of a novel.
No comments:
Post a Comment