Lessons

I have learned a great deal about my self over the past 9 months and more specifically in the last few days. In a city choc full of people, we can choose to surround ourselves with people we choose. But as you minimise the number of people in your everyday, perhaps by moving to an island, you would think that being in search of the same peace and freedom the connection would be simple and require non-effort. It's probably just me and where I am at in terms of life-level, but it is most certainly interesting as to how we draw certain people into our life.

Here is what I have observed in the last few days;

- The way I 'feel' around difficult people.
- The way I 'feel' around negative people.
- Love and acceptance for oneself.
- Intense lonliness and opening the heart.
- Compassion, understanding, acceptance and letting go of past pain and expectations of the future.
- Learning to accept and appreciate the present moment.

While I can create this list and think about specific examples that led me to these conclusions. I would say the ones that take and require the most practice are the first 3.

I always have great patience when it comes to someone I care about, but when it come to people that get on my nerves instantly, I shut down. I have no space for them in my sphere of consciousness. I often wonder is does that lack of patience stem from the fact that as a mirror to this human being I to have these frustrating qualities or has it to do with the fact that my fault finding mind is living large.

Perhaps to some degree it is a bit of both. To walk away from the situation does not allow you to learn and move on, to go at it with anger just makes it worse and of course gives it life making it harder to resolve with two people rather than just in your own mind.

Is acceptance of the way it is the solution? or to throw love at it and meet it in the middle? or does just simply 'letting it go' serve?