City of Healing

Tree of Life

Up until now, and I'm sure such as life, if you have been reading any of this blog you will learn and already possibly know that life is a journey, just like a traveler setting out on a world adventure. 

Sounds like an obvious statement, and it may well be, but fact of the matter is that without the colours, smells and stimulation of our senses travel would be meaningless and pointless. Just like life we need our existence to experience the ups and downs in order to get on our true path and find our 'flow'.

I moved to Thailand in January 2012 for no other reason other than that my soul feels welcome here as if it had lived here before. I stayed in Pai for 2 months to chill and to possibly align my business plans with my head.

In March 2012, I decided to venture into Chiang Mai, rent an apartment and implement my plans. To my surprise, this has come with much struggle, emotion, pain and suffering. I am totally broke and at the same time driven to pursue my plans.

I fall into a group of women that have and are on a similar journey. While the milestones and the age gaps may be different, in essence it is one and the same. They are my future, I am their past and being here in Chiang Mai, we meet in the middle.

In spending time with these women I have learnt so much about my self, my work and how struggle and pain is necessary in order to shift from that of a child to that of an adult. I am not saying here that this process is close to complete. All I would like to identify is that I do understand and I am getting it.

When I said earlier that I wanted to align my business with my head, this was the fundamental flaw. To truly honour your inner desires and innate gifts you must align this with your infinite self. What we desire is a result of our conditioning, beliefs and values showered upon us through the past. The past is the past and the now, though it may be a result of the past is not significant to how things unfold in the future.

Complex statements, yes I know. But with experience it becomes apparent that as we evolve and shift consciously, you will see that the secret to life is not what we want or how we get it. It is how we are despite what we have. Abundance or lack thereof we must learn to observe without judgement.

How does this help or have relevance to my life?

I can only speak for me of course, and in doing so while writing this post. I feel that the true response for me is that observation of the mind and its reactions to the perceived reality created with in itself is the nature of learning about your true self.

I still have moments whereby I react with emotion to my present situation. What holds me strong and allows to write posts such as this is - knowing. Knowing is an awareness. Awareness is consciousness. Consciousness is not about enlightenment, it is about being aware of what is at play...is the mind and ego or is it your true self calling out for attention. Being able to distinguish is like having no travel plans and being guided by what feels right independent of external forces.