honesty is always the best policy

Regardless of weather or not I should or shouldn’t feel this way. It is what it is. We got ourselves here, not out of spite or malicious intentions, its just the way life flows. We were brought to each others life to learn lessons, to discover aspects about ourselves that we could so easily leave to the way side and remain complacent. But when you get a kick up the ass and life presents something to you that not even temptation can resist, what do you do? Ignore it? Well we can try, but the reality is not that simple. Higher consciousness tells us otherwise, but emotions tell us what we feel.

So you asked me what it is I want, right now? My answer is this… I want to go on my trip, follow my heart and focus on my dreams. As for you, I want to continue to get to know you better just the way it is. Its not to say we have to be physical every time we see each other nor does it mean we have to hold back when we are together. Guess that’s the going with the flow part.

I know its hard for me to be the person that’s there for you when you are going through something else with someone else. So I just want you to know that I am here for you with no judgement or expectations of what and how you manage this. I know its easier to say than to live by, but I want you to know that I mean it. Like I keep saying, I have my journey ahead of me and I barely know what the next 3 months will bring. I definitely do not want to add to your head space so never feel that you are doing wrong by me. I am a grown woman, that is responsible for her own feelings and though you may feel I deserve more. Right now, I have it all. I have worked hard and got the results of what I deserve. That is, an amazing journey planned, great people in my life and my own inner contentment of who I am and where I am going.

I like to think both of us with our higher consciousness can see that we are both great girls that have great values for living.

Sorry for calling in a drunken state and talking shit and probably creating the issue, but my head is like that and I just like to make sure we understand where each other are coming from.

xx