living Om (Aum)

I got sick last week and it really knocked me about. I think I said, as I don't get sick often I'm not very good at completely stopping and taking the time out for the rest my body probably really needs. I know I have been smashing it and trying to balance everything going on in my life weather it needs to happen or not. Actually, not much of what I do does not need to happen... tangent...

Anyways, laying in bed last Wednesday, I was restless and just not feeling right. I'm sure it's many things on my mind that are the cause of this, but ultimately I think being sick was my bodies way of telling me to stop, pause, breathe, relax and have a look at the 'picture' I am in. Sometimes we get caught up in the picture and become the picture that it then becomes hard to have an open mind about the picture.... make sense?...

So while laying in my bed, I was looking at the 'Om' symbol I had tattooed on my left wrist and was trying to think back to my head space in October 2009 when I had this done. What was going on then, was very different to what is going on now, but yes parallels can be drawn. My head space after a long haul of emotions through broken relationships and a struggle of acceptance as to who I am versus who I thought I was...and finally being able to break free of this, regain strength and slap on some resilience cream was probably the biggest motive for me to get a symbolic tattoo.

I chose the Om symbol, because regardless of the situation or any situation for that matter, it was about learning to live in the present. In the present, where you have come from and where you are going are irrelevant. The meaning has shifted allot since 2009 as it was also a point in my career when I felt least passionate and needed a daily reminder to live 'Om'.

So present day, living 'Om' not only means living in the present, it also means to live in harmony with your highest values. Taking all of life's experiences, the good the bad and the ugly and apply the lessons learnt to how you live now and in the future. Being in tune with your higher self and listening to your instinct, your gut, your initial feeling toward a situation when a question in doubt appears or vice verse. I must admit, that I am no Mary McKillop (Saint) and still struggle with listening to the inner voice, but the difference now is that I at least hear it and feel uneasy if I choose to ignore it...A-U-M.