CoMpaSSioN

...a little (allot) annoyed with my self today for my reactions and attitude at work. I should be more thankful for the person that I am and the skills and ability I have to be fairly OK allot of things.

Side bar to this initial thought, is that on the same note, I used to get as equally frustrated with myself for not specialising or being truly gifted at one single thing.

....back on track...I'm not one to praise my self full of glory and hit my head on doorways as I walk through. But there comes a point in your life when you do have to recognise your strengths and your weakness and capitalise or acquire and develop new skills.

For moi, hospitality is a no brain.er, being friendly, happy and bubbly to people is a no brain.er, working with others and having fun, a no brain.er. Working with in experienced people, ummmmm becoming less of a no a brain.er. I need to re-establish patience. I am not perfect. In fact, very far from it and if I had to replay a movie or hear my thoughts over today, it would not be something I would like to watch or listen to over and over. In recognising that, I am able to get it off my chest now, because I do not like these negative draining thoughts rattling in my head.

Many of the people I work with at the cafe are new to the industry, from a different culture and English is not their first language. I need to have more patience with them as its also not their fault that they have not received the right level of training to be their. Each member of staff has their own motivation for being their and therefore need that job and for them to be unhappy work is not nice... I can only speak for my self and in the greater scheme of things, I am sure that my situation and reason for being their is much more luxurious than most. I am going traveling for 6 months. Getting out of here to explore the world and be immersed in a different culture, whereby I will be the foreigner, out of my comfort zone, the one that cannot understand a language.

It wasn't until I had a full blown vent with my good mate Dani that I talked my self around from frustration to compassion and re focused my energy of all my passion, drive and motive for doing what I am doing, which can at times feel buried deep inside.

I am removing my thoughts as of right now and am only going to work with an open mind of I'm going to do what I need to do, to get to where I am going to go.