tempted by the fruit of another...

Temptation is tempting. Urges, desire, attraction, passion...all emotions that make us crave and often succumb.

Interesting situation...

Attraction? Yes. Connection? Yes. Curious? Yes. Stimulating? Yes. Exciting? Yes. Complicated? Yes. Relationship? Yes. Can hearts be broken? Yes Many.

Life often challenges us to test us and to ensure we keep growing and evolving. 'Old' lessons in disguise are often used to ensure major struggles of the past have been clearly dealt with and understood. In which case, sometimes we effortlessly flow through such challenges with grace, poise and wisdom and sometimes we struggle with our values and morals, recognise that we have learnt this lesson before, but can still struggle to implement and execute the appropriate actions according to what we have learnt. 

My question is this, and mind you I already know the morally correct answer, but I'm just making sure. What if its worth the risk? Have I not learnt my lesson? Am I being, selfish, inconsiderate, naive, an asshole?

Its all so confusing and clear at once...Like Neutral!

I'm going around in circles in my brain. I can see all sides and outcomes to the situation yet some dysfunctional cell in body says, go for it, go with the flow, live in the moment, be present...

Here's the thing. As the nature of the situation is so complicated and the history of how this all came about and how we met blah blah. (For another post, at a later date). This has to wait. Patience and Time will be the real true test of whats meant to be. Like with everything. What ever happened to the theory of, take the opportunity while you can. Grrr. Sometimes, knowing more and being more can be frustrating, because being immature and juvenile is easy. Though the repercussions so much tougher...another head circle!

Life as I know it this year has changed so rapidly and so unexpectedly. The beginning of 2011 is so different to what I am going through right now and I know that once I jet off for a few months 2011 will change again. I know its almost stating the bleeding obvious, but the dynamics and the contrast of feelings, emotions, ups and downs, people that come and go....fuck me....put your seat belts on! I'm not sure if its profanity or insanity!! But I try to remain cool, composed, chillaxed and see where this ride takes me.

I am talking in riddles and may not even be making much sense, In a nutshell...two mates, go out get drunk, have sex, enjoy the sex, communicate more, like each other more, one is in a relationship, the other is not...