re-discovering

5 July 2011

Days are seemingly longer and sleep like a distant memory, a recollection of when I was a small child and that’s how we were rejuvenated to start another day.
I’m in such a weird place in my mind. I know what I need to do in order to pursue my dream, my career, my life journey. So all the shit that I have to go through on a daily basis is just that shit I have to go through to fix the shit I got my self into.

Being a part time PT for the past 2 months and working with a new client has given me back that little spark, a reminder of what I love. This morning after her first session, she said to me ‘how long you been a trainer for?” I said 11 years. She said wow…”you seem like you love it”… and for the first time in a long time. I felt like a natural born trainer. Well, a person that was put on this earth, to motivate, lead and inspire others to believe that they can make changes and get to where they want to be.

This quality, is something I discovered in studying (and subsequently dropping out to go to India) that in my numerology, based on my birthday is that I am a natural born leader, represented by the house of Thunder or number 3 on the Bua Gua Template. This probably wont make sense to anyone. So in order to cultivate this quality, you have to be aware of what your other 2 numbers are and how they can distract or derail you from reaching your full potential. Probably not explained correctly…So my second number is 7 which is house Lake, which is creative, adventurous, playful etc. Though the number which eludes me and causes me all sort of ups and down is Water, 1. Water is emotional. Which basically means that this prevents you creating that focus you need when you want to achieve something. I best say here, that this is my interpretation of my reading in my words. There are also lots of positives to each of the houses stated, but in a nut shell that’s how I came to the conclusion that being a natural born trainer is my calling.

Where I stand now is that I do not know in which form, hence why I have taken the time out. So, to be true to me and follow my gut, which is take a break, go traveling, hang with Liz Smiz. That is what I am going to do. I know when I come back, or even while I am away, things will continue to evolve and morph as and where I need. I trust my gut feeling now, more than I ever have and this is the pre-tense in which I will leave Sydney. Open, honest and intuitive to my own essence.

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