:-<>scream to the top of my lungs <>-:

So my iphone is broke, which means no internet, which means no blogging, which means word docs. So here is the copy and paste from 4th July 2011

Perception is an interesting topic, a topic that I will run with today. Feel like I want to scream and cry. But for some reason, I can’t, won’t, don’t. I know its good to cry and release but it feels like right now there is no point.

Past obligations are appearing now and are coming up to bite me in the ass. In the midst of all this hard work and slave labour that I am exposing my self too all because I am too lazy to promote myself and get clients. I am working fucking huge hours, barely sleeping and still feel poor. Why, because past decisions are now show repurcussions.

I want to slip away. I want to run away from it all and just have a fucking break and have a think about it all. I feel like I can’t learn anymore lessons right now. I need to digest what has happened and what keeps happening from the past 2 years. I just want it to run smoothly.

So I digress and let my negative thoughts do the typing. My perception is this. FUCK ME! I can’t take anymore. I am doing the best I can and it just doesn’t seem to cut the cake.

I know there is a lesson to be learnt in all of this and right now, I want to write that I don’t know what it is. But instinct says, act wisely, think things through, be less impulsive and have patience.
Trying to turn negatives into positives at times can be hard. When your tired, run down exhausted and shit keeps flying at you.

So you have to think of the greater cause, you purpose. The reasons behind the motive.

Struggling today!