I love it how my Mum is always there for me, I know that she would do anything for me and loves me no matter what. I really do want to spend more time with her before I go traveling. I know she is going to worry about me, so hanging out with her and letting her know that I am a (partially capable) adult should calm her.
Shes quite a character my Mum, shes a little Filipino lady that has lived here in Australia for over 30 years now, so she speaks perfect English and has a Philo Aussie accent. Which basically means, he is she, she is he and sometimes she makes no sense...but I cant just blame that on English. hehehhee. She is a bit of a nutter too. We call each other names, like mudda pucka. Our edited version of Mutha Fucka...incase you didnt get that.
She and I are very similar, but its almost as if I am continuing on the legacy by being the free spirit. She left Manila to get away and experieince a new life for her self, to work and support her family back in Manila. She met my Dad pretty much straight away (within the first year) of moving to Sydney....I on the other hand have lived abroad twice and am not so easy to tie down. I love change, uncertainty, adventure, freedom, people, culture, food. I often joke, that in my past life I was a bird. :) But secretly, I think its true. hehhe. Though the flip side to all of this is that, I know deep down, I do seek all of those things, not as high on the priority list as some, but it is definitely there. I am also a true beliver that if the right person was to be presented, then it would be an effortless effort of letting go, making comprise and sharing the path.
Anyways, my Mum since being married to my Dad was able to live out her dream of moving to this massive island (girked by sea) meeting a good guy and the best part is yet to happen....she has me. Most of the time she thinks I am volitile, erratic, unstable and still a child. I get that, I can see how she would think that, but I know that she has also learnt that this is who I am. If I was my Mother I would be highly concerned too, but when she and I can spend a day together like today we sit and talk, I share my dreams, ideas and vision, she listens and also dreams with me. I love that about her.
..."if you ever read this Mum". "Please dont worry, I have this life under control". I don't know exactly what I am doing, but it is calculated and still lies in the direction I have always been heading. I have been side tracked many times and all I know right now is that I am doing the right thing for me. I need change, inspiration, to be stimulated, to experience more. I am not dis satisfied with my life here or running away from anything. The timing is right and it is time for me to embark upon a journey that will change my life, give me a well deserved break. I know who is Elizabeth is and she wants to see how she interacts with the world and responds to life situations out of her comfort zone. I am not lost mum, I am already found, just searching for a little more to create an exisistence that is rewarding and satisfying.
I Love you Mum
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