Thou are That - I had a tattoo done on right forearm about 3 weeks ago. I was having a pretty ordinary day and didn't know how I wanted to fill my time, but I definitely wanted to fill it with something for me. So rather than a pedicure, I thought, it's tattoo you been thinking about done today...
I have been thinking about this 'Sanskrit' term for a few months, since studying and since dropping out of Oriental Psychology. It really resonated with me, because I know for myself that I am always striving to be something. Most of us. This is what we are conditioned to believe is important from childhood. What do you want to be???...I get that, that's how we set goals, learn grow, set new goals, learn, grow...etc. But at which point after all this striving do we take the time to stop and say...shit...I've come along away, look where I'm at. Look at what I am, what I have become. Most of the time we forget to stop and smell the roses and continue to burn ourselves out striving, wanting more, achieving more and are never truly satisfied with who we are and what we are.
My story is this. 31, almost 32 year old personal trainer. (Natural born trainer as I see it). Got all elements to be anything I choose to be in this industry, but am limited by my desire to acquire and acquire more knowledge and experience so that I can believe I am the trainer that my sub conscious imagines I am. But in reality, there is nothing wrong with the trainer that I am. I know this now, because the clients I have chosen to work with, love me for me. Maybe I am not articulating this well, but my point in a nut shell is this,
"when you let go who you think you should be, you become who you are".
I used to be very hard on my self. Allot of negative head speak, self punishment, sabotage etc. I'm not saying they are 100% demolished, but I am aware of them and accept that they are a part of me. I find, that when I am not being true to myself these behaviours come out to play!...
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